Tuesday, July 24, 2007 @12:18 AM
Was chatting wit my da jie jus now... wad she say is true... n wad 2yrs ago an apple told me.... sld i really change? as in to a tougher person? or remain as wad i m now? i still remember wad 2yrs ago said to me......... "i'm childish in relationship.." of coz there is more other den dis but dis sentence is enough le.. nth to say nth to complain.... mayb up till now i m still belong to dat sentence...
From dis moment i will treat her as normal... which is.. when ever i saw her msg i mus control my feeling.. although say is easier den action.. there is alot more for me to improve... if dis time rd i failed... i will treat it as an experience.. a FRUITFUL experience... But really hae to thnx both my dajie n her... guess without them i guess i still dunno wad changes sld i done...
Ermm.. its not as if i failed my "mission" or wad leh.. nth happen much.. but i just dun wanna put tooo much hope in it coz afterall she is older den me n i still got so many stuffs to change... as far as i noe.. the time is not ripe yet.. i still not rdy for relationship.. for the past 21yrs i learned nth on it.. but dis time round i'm serious.. i will cont remain as friend wit her as i not rdy in going deeper in dat. i m a noob in dat.. although the answer is obvious coz of diff in age n my way of thinking is still childish, i will still tried it out..................
fail or succeed i leave dat to fate.... only heaven knows......
