jus reached home.. omg tml nid go camp.. :( went to watch movie wit martin n andy... the dark knight... very nice moive... guess the main actor is not batman but is joker.... joker is very nice... tooo bad he dead in real-life..... haizz....

Meet martin n pass him the present liao.. now all i can do is wait for him to pass the present to her le... nth i can do.. i wrote a small birthday card to her.... hope she read it... i will upload the present photo tml.. now is quite late le.. time to slp later 545 hae to wake up go camp le.. :(

miss her~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

jus come back from malaysia... very fun.. i sit andy car.. den amy,fook,alvin took martin car.. went in eat dinner... all like 7th month jus come out like dis... we ordered.. : clayfish,prawn,soup,kailan,squid,sotong,deer meat,toufu,crab n stingray. total bill is RM$270. lol....... den we shoot to jusco n shop shop awhile come back to sg... quite a fun day.. i predict tml will hae a tea-time wit andy n martin they all liao.. haha.....

Past few days keep went drink kopi wit them tok cock.... well.... i dunno is she nv log in msn or she had already deleted n blocked me liao.. even nv contact her for so long, she will still block me? i dunno.... heard her mood is very bad.. face black black like whole sg owe her money.. dunno wad happen. Today is her birthday, wanted to gif her the present but still think martin n alph gif for me is better. is not the rite time for me to gif. mayb dats my last things i will do for her le. either she clear the misunderstood or if still carry on like dis.. i jus 4get it bah..... although i reluctant to do it. Well.. most i do is send her a birthday msg.... haizzz

Recieved a call from staff, ask me whether i wan to extend my stay in taiwan for 3-4 more weeks. is gd for me coz i can get out of the misery life in sg n relax myself there but the problem is i will miss her..... haizz.......... quite torturing for me....... i told staff i consider it..... still dunno wad i sld do...... guess only guanying ma can guild me thru dis process...................

aiyooo... dis few days hardly blog was busy lvling my char in fiesta else my lvl difference will be alot. so keep playing lor.. play till 4-5am everyday den next day go camp.. :( confirm dun hae 7hours of slp. anyway.. i oso cant get to slp... insomia~~~~~ very jialat hor... was everyday wit a shag face at work. friday went down to alvin pub wit martin.andy,jiali,ah chang. went there relax enjoy n oso for martin to see amy lor... but wad i can say is he enjoy his day dat nite... after dat we sent alvin n amy home.. reached home ard 5+am -.-. steam.. ah chang lagi worst, nv slp reach home go bath den go work liao.... steam~~~~~~~~~~~ ytd met alph n martin oso.. they come to my house here meet i oso dunno y until..................................... alph tell me something abt the ger lor.... i hear liao oso lppl. rite from the start i was been sentence to death which i haven go to the verdict yet. so wad? her friends saw my pics liao den told her they understand y she not interested in me. i mean like wtf... see picture can noe how dis person is? sian liao..... really jitao down~~~~~ i put comment on my friend friendster, she oso can say i childish.. wtf again lor.. i put comment she hae to interfere oso meh? den like dis i bo bian liao lor... there is toooooo much misunderstanding about me... hae to clear it out. dis hae to be done.. i oso cant speak to her.. haizz... i dunno wad to do la... really.... the present i do for her liao.. since done liao.. i pass to martin tell him to pass to her bah.. i oso tell martint o control his temper... coz he bth dat ger oso liao.. for me... i dunno wad to do.. although mouth say dun care liao.. but... i still deep deep like her....................................................................................................................... :(

Ytd wan to blog de but once i reached home fook jio me dota liao... played till 5+. ytd my dinner very late sia.. martin la... wait him till 11pm. wait till i nearly fall aslp on my bed liao.. den we went for dinner den chit-chat awhile till 1am. yeah.. n its PAY DAY!!!! hehe.... today i oso nv go camp... my staff given me off.... he tout i somehow suffering depression.. tell me stay at home sort out my problems first den go back camp on friday. Do i really look like depression? i oso dunno...

Now taking a break from fiesta.. amy lor.. jio us play fiesta wit her cont her lvling.. so bo bian.. went to d/l back the game n play... n yeah.. i completed my frontlines: fuel of war today... within 2 days.. game completed.. can delete the game liao.. hehe.. the gameplay not bad.. tooo bad i cant play dat online. Project-D officially done... ytd nite use glue n stick it.. n its done.. yeah.. jus nid to do wrapping n is rdy to gif the present to her on her birthday.. i post the pic of the present after i given her the present. missing her now >.<

Jus reached home la kopi wit alph @ s-11... hehe... well.. alot things to noe.. its like negetive for me liao... but i still wunt gif up.... i wunt contact her till her birthday bah.. let her cool down.... after gif her the present.. see how bah.... i feel much better after knowing so much things. i make myself clear.... although i m not her type.. i jus pray n hope 1 day she will appreciate it!

Jus back la kopi wit martin n his 2 friends.. today went wit martin to find glue for my project-D. It nid a special type of glue to stick it de... lucky martin friend got dis type of special glue.. went to geylang n get it. After dat went to mit his 2 friends hae dinner n hang ard yishun blk 925 till 11pm. We r making plans for martin on friday de.. dis time martin really mus buck up.. dun gif those ai mai ai mai attitude. gambateh!!!!! We oso boliao.. we tok abt how doraemon play mahjong.. lol.. damm funny sia.. how i wish i can share dis story wit her.... haizzz.

I dis time really make myself into trouble liao dis time... first is i send her the sad song when she is very sad.... now my action on holding her hands make her feel dat i m taking chances on her.. omg.... jump yellow river oso cant clear.... i dun wanna explain to her again coz i dun wan to "yue miao yue hei" Just hope n pray dat she will understand my intentions on dat day. i really nv think of it.. wad i think on dat day is faster catch it else it run away.. disappoint her.. If i really wan to take advantages on her.. i already do it long time ago.. but the problem lies on me is dat..... I DUN DARE TO!!!!!! i noe how to say ppl.. but when it comes to myself when chasing ger.... i m very very very shy de.... DATS THE PROBLEM ON ME!!!!! after so many years.... i m still like dis.. haizzzz................ wad i can say is........ dis is the 2nd ger i putting my 101% whole-heartedly into chasing her.. Hope dat 1 day she will comes to understand it.... Even cant get together... i can tell myself dat.. "melvin, u hae try ur best. Good job"

Jus come back meeting martin.. jus to noe 2 more of his friends... chit chat well.. den we like join forces help to kai dao martin mind.... about his amy lor..... tok whole day jus keep nagging at him.. "cherish ur love ones while u still can" dis friday is for martin to perform liao... nobody going to drive there le.. all ALLOUT help him.. haha.... cos he got chances... den he keep compare to mine.. i know my situation... theres no way to compare... he still got chance.. for me...... is like haizzz....


Downloaded a song.. very nice... hear liao lao ba sai..... *cries*

title is 爱的好辛苦 by 黑龙




我曾经以为爱上你不会错

你如今变得让我没有把握

曾经的承诺 对与错

回过头又算是什么

这失去的爱如何能复活

你过的生活似乎很快乐

我虽然难过 爱让我懦弱付

出的太多无法解脱

这心痛你能明白吗

我应该如何才不会是这结果

我爱你爱得好辛苦 爱的好孤独 爱的没有退路

我好无助 我不去痛苦 忍不住的哭

这是你给我的礼物

我爱你爱的好辛苦 爱的好糊涂

爱的不能醒目

你好残酷 我看着来路 你并不在乎

也许吧 我无所谓 一个人去漫步

你过的生活 似乎很快乐

我虽然难过 爱让我懦弱

付出的太多无法解脱

这心痛你能明白吗

我应该如何才不会是这结果

我爱你爱得好辛苦 爱的好孤独 爱的没有退路

我好无助 我不去痛苦 忍不住的哭

这是你给我的礼物

我爱你爱的好辛苦 爱的好糊涂

爱的不能醒目

你好残酷 我看着来路 却并不在乎

也许吧 我无所谓

我爱你爱得好辛苦 爱的好孤独 爱的没有退路

我好无助 我不去痛苦 忍不住的哭

这是你给我的礼物

我爱你爱的好辛苦 爱的好糊涂

爱的不能醒目

你好残酷 我看着来路 却并不在乎

也许吧 我无所谓 一个人去漫步

Today the weather very gd.... make me nearly slp whole day.... lucky diver called me ask me out play snooker.. else i really slp whole day le. We went to play at amk till 4+ den i go home.... reached home play games awhile.. After dat slp~~~~~~~~~~~~

Jus now chat wit her awhile... hmmm or can i say i been doing the chatting? she seems not in a mood to tok to me.. so i oso dun wanna disturb her liao, i go offline msn le... anyway i meeting martin later at hub.... dunno we going to tok cock for how long dis time... our record is 5hours+ non-stop teh-O, teh-O, teh-O... lol........

I learned 1 sentenced today....

"sometimes letting go is better den holding on"

trying to say is "if u really like the person u sld let go, she will come back to u till she realise u exists. Holding on a person is a 1-sided affair, it will not bring happiness but only more misery. There is a saying.. its takes 2 hands to clap.

But sld i really let go? or sld i jus hold on for some times? headache again~~~~~~~

Just finished toking to martin on fone.. lol.. for ard 1hour+.. bo liao guy....... Today is quite a joyful day bah..... thnx to alph for organising dis outing. planned to watch movies n den go catch prawns. b4 dis i went to bugis "guan ying miao" pray wit martin. den we walk from bugis to cineleisure. yeah.. walk.. sweat like hell...

Ytd last min went to alvin pub for martin.. den so coincident sng called me ask me where m i.. i told him i at my friend pub.. he say ok.. 5min i reach there... wtf sia.. lol.. he really reach there. steady friend.. but realise is his birthday.. lol.. i buay steady coz i 4get..... den i intro him amy's card game.. den we play like crazy ppl sia inside the pub.. lol.... stay there till 3+ reached home ard 4+... shack~~~~~~~~

Jus now when we met each other outside cine.. the atmostsphere is very cold..... den go watch movie... inside the cinema.. martin feel weird sia.. coz i sit very close to him.. lol.. he say he no space, coz she sit beside me.. i wanna gif her more space.. after movie, we go makan den go catch prawns at bishan there. not bad 3hour i n her caught 3 prawns.. LOL... well.. mayb the killing aura tooo much.. all the prawns scared. now i typing in here my hand is numb numb de.. coz jus now i hold her hand.. OMG.. dun think tooo much.... coz jus now she was ctaching den suddenly saw got prawn bite the bait.. i was so excited n happy for her.... dat i helped her quickly so dat the prawn wunt run away making her disappointed. i really nv think thru my big big brain jus now. i think i grab her hand tightly jus now... mayb she will feel i take advantage... but i really nv sia... but the whole day outing.. dat 1min is the happiest moment for me.... after dat we go bbq the prawns.. hehehe.. food~~~ but i dun eat prawns de.. lol... helped her shelled off the prawns. den at the second prawn she holding.. she say we wanna shelled off herself.. i pass her the other 1 den she pass me back the prawn i shelled.. i nearly make another stupid mistake by putting my head forward to eat it... but lucky i fast respond hold back my head use my hand go take it.. martin saw it.. he laugh sia... kuku him.... Den she really in a rush to go home le.. off she goes.. was jus now tout can send her home den i can go home early tooo so dat i no nid to bbq wit ah wee they all there.. very hot sia~~~~~~~~~~lol.. but nvm all her decisions i respect de.. so i stay wit wee.........

Hope today she did enjoy......... main thing is as long as she happy got smile can liao.... everything is ok liao

ytd wanted to post de but its like i been out the whole day till 4+ den reached home...
My 3SG dun ever think of it liao... coz course cancel. was totally pissed off.... 2 times. 2 times SAF gif me false hope le. dunno y dis few weeks everything dun move smoothly..

The ger i mention i noe from friendster.. I dunno wad i did or wadever happens.. i nv even pester her at all.. but she started to treat me so cold.... Guess its going to be another failure for Melvin Dee yet again. sometimes i wonder... y heaven want to make a fool out of me? wad did i ever do to deserve dis type of punishment. cant jus let me get into a relationship? or m i fated to be single throughout my life? I hae turn over a new leaf le.. wad past is past le.. but do i still deserve like dis? So far up till now.. dis ger is the second ger i put whole-heartedly to xian. Really likes her alot although i noe dat i m not her type de n comparing me to her ex.. Later going to watch movie n mayb got catch pawns later wit martin, alph n her. Dunno how its going to be.

Dis is really tiring de... not physical tired. is mentally tired. Do i really hae to deserve dis type of fate? i really dunno. Pls gif me some guide...

wow... its been a long long time since i log in my blogger le..... lets see.... from feb till now -.-Zzzz

was currently Doing 1 of my major project i name it : Project-D . haha... noe y it is name like dis? not becoz of the movie initial-D . its coz of my surname is Dee... so i put project-D lor..... its going to finish soon by dis friday... once i finish will upload the pics to it.. see whether its is nice a not....

During the period i missing from feb till now.. i went thru tekong for re-course. n i oso get to noe a ger from friendster, we hae been chatting wit each other for 4 months le... n the feeling towards her started to spark..... so i decided to xian her..... its been quite a difficult task for me to do. i jus hae to take my time.. not in a rush....

Ya... btw... i going for 3SG course next week on 7 july till 20 aug. Den i will be flying off for taiwan from 28 aug till 20 sept.. quite a heretic period for me...... den once come back from taiwan.. i can countdown for my ORD date on 5th dec le... hehe........

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